Craziness!!

Well hello there everyone if anyone who reads this. I have been to tired to even relive my days with bloggin but tonight decided I wanted to. My husband has switched from a night shift to a crack of dawn shift where is goes in at 6. So him being home in the evenings is a adjustment for everyone especially Kelley who at two has trouble wondering why daddy doesn't get her up in the morning anymore and why now he gets her ready for bed. She asks about him all day. This morning she wanted to make sure that daddy also was able to eat breakfast before he went to work. She loves her daddy and has definetely been a daddy's girl from the begging. 

 So our day today we went to my parents (without daddy since he had to work) and got see miss Rita who is practically like my grandma but not blood related. Everytime I see her I miss her husband homer so much. He died a few years ago. I am thankful for the memories I have with them especially of dancing with him at my wedding. Luke was spoiled was held by someone all day today and he loved it. I had a good friend of my mine also stop by I used to babysit for her when I was younger and now her kids babysit for mine. Anyways she brought over some dressed for me to borrow for this weekends wedding we are going to. I still have weight to lose since I was pregnant and none of my clothes fit yet plus I needed one I could nurse in and she had two perfect fit ones for me. I am so excited that I didn't have to go buy any. My brother and his wife and kids also came over today so Kelley had fun playing with them. We were there all day and got home and it was pretty much time for bed although both slept in car since Kelley didn't get a nap today. Before I put Kelley to sleep I tried to get her stuff together for this weekend for the wedding but I didn't get far so tomorrow I will have to pack. After I got her in bed I tried that magical thing called taking a shower where you wash your hair and shave yea well zach came in saying Luke was screaming and ready to eat so I did my best. I'm pretty tired from being up with him last night he is still gassy/constipated and was restless in his sleep plus if I don't fall asleep before zach starts snoring I have had a hard time sleeping. Which is my plan after this. Also Kelley has been having pp accidents in her car seat and we keep having to take it apart to wash it which is a lot of work. Finally today I think I got the p smell out. No idea why she is having so many accidents in the car but she is still very young to be so well potty trained already. Tonight before we left my parents I got her ready for bed and put a diaper on her so I wouldn't have to stop to take her p. She fell asleep almost instantly in car and stayed dry the whole time. Ironic. Any ideas on how to get her to quit going in her car seat?

   Thoughts from today: as I watched my brother trying to discipline his very tired four year old son I sat laughing and thinking how nice it is sometimes to know that you aren't in this alone and everyone yes everyone has those moments with their children. Before you have children and even after you think we are the best most perfect parents and have the perfect child. Our child will never miss behave, steal toys (use her teeth by biting the toys to steal them), yell mine mine mine all day long, completely flip her lid when someone else is playing with her special baby doll or Minnie Mouse, throw tantrums for absolutely no reason  and you also think even if they do do these things you are the perfect parent right so you know exactly how to respong and you never lose your cool.... To this I laugh hahahahaha!! Every child is their own person you cannot control them no matter how hard you try and they have no sensor as to when they will shock you with a wild tantrum no matter how hard you teach them and try your best to discipline and you will also learn that as perfect as you try to be you will flip out and not keep your cool at times..... But even though all this occurs we still love our babies and yes we still think they are perfect because they are perfect little monsters that we helped create :). I love my babies and try so hard to teach them right from wrong but you know sometimes I have those same temper tantrums for no reason at all other than I'm tired or hungry or just want it my way so I will continue to pray for my babies and pray that God will give me the patience and knowledge to teach them in his ways. Anyone else relate to this? Kelley is at that age where it is so hard sometimes I just feel libel a failure and like  I don't know what else to do to somedays. She is slowly learning to play with others and share but we have a very looong road ahead of us.